quick update
been awhile. thanks those who had been contacting me by email to express concern. not that i’m not wanting to update, but there have been some changes that took up a little more time than i expected.
rotation to new division
i have finally moved from my previous division to the new one, official since 1 april 08. leading up to this though, i found myself clearing a lot of paperwork (meaning a lot of typing, haggling with clients, and managing boss’ expectations) leaving me drained to type out extensive entries for everyone’s benefit. also, i have been brought around on many interesting meetings under my new portfolio–resulting in even MORE paperwork that i need to handle. my challenge is basically to ensure steady ramp up of my the new job while managing the occasional mismanaged load from the past. this presents quite an interesting proposition. we’ll see how this continues to work out. =)
“us” time
also finding time to spend with lloyd. no other reason, just hanging around because it is comfortable. i would say that the relationship is getting a lot stronger, facilitated by the fact that we see each other everyday with barely a need to quibble. one or two disagreements–what is a relationship without one or two of these? =p–but nothing earth shattering. so long as there’s mutual respect for each other’s opinion, it’s fair to have our own stand on all things.
time has therefore been spent doing miscellaneous things like getting nice food (both pricey and budget), hanging around lloyd while he works off the saturday, or when he’s studying (i usually pick up the PSP for these occasions… i’m a gamer, so sue me. =p), and also catching up with some friends. apologies though upfront to friends who had been trying to get me. i note the re-distribution of the resource “time”, and will definitely make up for the lack of it soon enough.
other significant changes
i’m moving house soon. to kembengan this time. yes, some people will grouse at the fact i’m losing the convenient city location–especially the parking!–to hit the heartlands, but the decision was not mine to make. however, i DID have a hand in making some minor decisions regarding the interior design. so hopefully when i move to the new place, it would be stepping into something that feels more like home. =)
period of change
i suppose there are lots of changes already happening, more than i care to update at this point. i’ll wait for the dust to settle a bit first, then i’ll make a more focused entry on these things. but as you can tell from above, there’s enough change in my life now that i’m also barely above water myself. here’s wishing all the best to myself, eh? =p
a romantic tragedy
a few thoughts:
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censorship is annoying. necessary evil, but annoying all the same.
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why are all gay-themed movies that i’ve ever watched so tragic?
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“It” is the epitome of the perfect mate: good looking, sensitive, faithful and loving… i wonder why we don’t have more of those people in the world.
“protective” or “controlling”?
the issue, for the large part, has been resolved. all i have left is the residual feeling that i could/should have been able to react better. but there’s usually no point crying over spilt milk; only a point to learn from and prepare for the next time should the issue arise again.
i don’t think there’s a need to blog the details of the situation. suffice to say that i have, through this incident, learnt the most important lesson:
lloyd is very important to me, and should he ever come to be in any compromising situation that he cannot easily extricate himself, i will step in first (and beg forgiveness later if wrong) than hang back and expect a drowning loved one to suddenly float to shore.
if keeping the above promise labels me as being “controlling” rather than “protective”, so be it.
pebbles of useless wisdom #2
ignorance is bliss… you don’t know what you’ll miss.
this is what you get when a bunch of bored colleagues sit down to munch for lunch–another pebble of useless wisdom.
we were referring to a recent corporate event where a member of the senior management, in all brevity, decided to code-name some lady deep throat when he was giving his official speech. deep throat did more than just cover-up the lady’s identity, that was for sure.
this was where a very pure soul at our table admitted that he didn’t know what deep throat till that day. skeptics at heart, we probed, only to find out that he truly had no clue. doesn’t even watch porn! definitely an innocent. *grin*
that’s where someone else commented, “ignorance is bliss… don’t worry.” and giving it some quick thought, i threw the next words, “you don’t know what you’ll miss.”
to be fair, the previous phrase is used in the context that to be ignorant of the bad stuff is indeed a good thing. cos one can’t worry/fret about something if they don’t know about it at all. but what really happens is that not knowing means you don’t know whether if it’s good or bad in the first place. so for the more capable of dealing with “bad stuff”, and wanting to fully experience what life has to offer, then be as un-ignorant as possible, lest you miss something truly amazing in your life.
big v weekend: chronology
14 feb, the big v – 1215 pm, was at changi airport to pick lloyd up. back from kuching… ended up waiting till 1240 pm before finally catching a glimpse of a very familiar face… familiar smile. made my heart skip a little. glossing over the hugs, kisses and companionship, lunch at terminal 1 food court–incidentally, the poor dear went to order food without singapore dollars… it was… a memorable experience–then driving back to lloyd‘s to unpack and settle back in. already pre-decided dinner would be home-cooked so as not to overspend on v-commercialization, so ended up watching him unpack, gave him his v-day present, watch his face light up, and then sweet afternoon rest, followed by shopping for ingredients (mushrooms… lots of mushrooms), dinner, then coke, then unfortunately, i had to go home, leaving lloyd to finish tidying up his place for the night.
friday, 15 feb – whole day seminar at marina mandarin, but ended early. had this batacuda-thing-percussion group perform for us, and i thought that was great. lunch was ok. but post lunch, all i could think about was getting out of the seminar. so by the time they were done, rushed to lloyd‘s, had facial done, dinner at jumbo seafood with mingyen, borna, alex… very sumptuous, then home for resting. =)
saturday, 16 feb – woke up, had breakfast with parents while lloyd slept through morning. went to vivo with derek to start drop by sentosa. flower festival 2008. nice flowers, and i think lloyd and derek enjoyed themselves thoroughly… but by 4 pm, i think it was the heat, we decided to stop… went to ikea with lloyd because derek needed his beauty nap… couldn’t find a good pillow nor pillow case, ended up going to carre four instead to buy… then back to my place to grab some stuff before heading up to lloyd‘s again for the night.
sunday, 17 feb – morning swim. bumped into kevyn at yio chu kang pool. swim was short, but good… i guess cos i haven’t swum in a long long time… then it was back to lloyd‘s for a short lunch, then out to meet with james and benji. had tea with them followed by movie–L, the spin off to deathnote i think… never watched deathnote nor deathnote 2… but i guess catching L wasn’t bad–at cathay with derek and hongjun. dinner at japanese restaurant in basement of cathay… my gawd, that was quite a satisfying meal… then it was back to lloyd‘s to pick up stuff (not before eating more cake and cream puffs… compliment of henry), before sleeping over at my place for monday’s wonderful event… WORK. *groan*
note: i’ll stop here. no, not doing the reflection thing this time. just want to record the chronology of events. there are other things that happened but not meant for the public…
lovesick
i haven’t felt like this in awhile;
restless, but can’t get things done
awake, but not quite around
pining, but without end
to the pangs…
hungry…
… for attention.
and a dash of neighbourliness…
every year, my uncle will offer to host everybody for an evening of debauchery, revelry and celebration to welcome the lunar new year. this year was no different. so after a whole day’s worth of visiting to collect red packets, the evening of the first day was the perfect avenue to pit the red packet dollars to the test in hope of getting more! except…
my uncle’s place was a row of semi-d’s, with a road that had space only for single lane traffic either way. continuous white line, so it didn’t normally offer very much in parking space. because the neighbour’s house appeared drab and without lighting, one of the younger uncles decided in all his regal glory to park his car blocking the driveway, thinking that the place was abandoned.
into the evening, up drove a battered down black car headed for that seemingly unoccupied house. stopped. a series of urgent horns. even as the young uncle made a dash for the car to drive it away, saying “sorry” all the way, the guy got out of the car and made a big hoohah about “what sorry?! sorry no cure!!” or something to that effect. *shrug*
with my uncle’s car driven away, the guy proceeded to park his car, got out with his family, and went into the house. i noted that he stood at the front door for awhile and stared outside. 15-20 mins later, the police came. i think we all know what happened. by this time, my sis and i made our move to head home. no need to complicate more matters.
i heard however that my uncle, owner of house, went out to talk to the police. while i don’t know the details of what transpired, i gathered it must have been something placating, cos the police was all ready to leave without another word. but just as they were about to leave, the neighbour came stomping out of the house and made another commotion, obviously trying to create more trouble for everyone.
i don’t know the conclusion of this saga yet. cos my parents made a move soon after. so much for neighbourliness eh? =/
CNY2008 – visiting!
destination #1 – mom’s side, grandma’s place. got quizzed again if i had a girlfriend. followed very very swiftly by whether i was going to get one soon. so i smiled and i said “not so fast.” but i guess i can only do that for a few more years before it becomes blatantly obvious, no? darn. but man, the food my grandma cooked was good! couldn’t stop eating, especially the tau kua in braised-duck-sauce thing… to die for!
destination #2 – dad’s side, uncle’s place (dad’s cousin apparently… so it’s an extended family sort of thing). mom didn’t go, so dad, za sista! and me trouped along to “sit and engage in lively small talk” with some distant cousins we only meet once a year. ok… it’s a lot better than i put it, but i think za sista! was actually feeling blue about it. met up with long-time-no-see cousins from states though–bruce and jingfei–who both admitted to at least 10 years of not being in singapore for CNY. before i could leave, though, my aunt from hong kong made it an obligation for me to at least twiddle on the piano before making a move. i guess when you round off the impromptu performance with majulah singapura, you know you need to know more songs…
destination #3 – by this time, i was really missing lloyd. still had dinner (steamboat, sumptuous), and was supposed to start some mahjong game but there was a lack of tables (all the likely candidates for mahjong were used to prop up the 3 steamboat pots in the garden). so instead, i watched young cousins play metal slug on the wii (the bet was on how many more times they must die to complete a stage…), and maybe one round of black jack (was a draw with the banker, so i made my exit right after. =p). found out za sista! and za boyfriend! were exchanging pointers on relationships over the phone around 10 pm or so, and i guess this is where we were about to make a move for home. by then, a not-so-neighbourly neighbour of my uncle came home to kick up a fuss about one of my uncles blocking his driveway with the car even though we apologized and responded as quickly as possible to remove the obstacle. details in another post, but man, some people really know how to spoil other people’s fun… so much for the CNY spirit eh? *shrug*
CNY2008 – reunion
well-attended - by that i mean every member on my dad’s side of the family–including my aunt and 2 cousins from hong kong who flew specially down for this year’s event.
complete – food (yong tau foo ftw!), revelry (enough wine by 815 pm… my gawd…) and family-bonding (chit chats, cards, community singing, etc.). the pang of missing someone never went away, but i didn’t expect it to. we just learn to deal with it after awhile i guess. made my day complete though when a phone call came around midnight after i got home…
day 4… and counting
it’s only been day 4, and i started writing poetry. i guess i AM as insane as i thought i’d be without someone around. and unlike others, i tend not to bottle it up, but rather let it all out in some form of artistic expression or another. but i must admit, poetry isn’t one of my preferred mediums. never found out the reason why.
anyhow, putting together what happened for easy reference as well:
friday, 1 feb 08 – dinner at boss’ house. nasi lemak for dinner, then followed by a relatively exciting mahjong game. unfortunately me got no luck, and because of my own stupidity, made an astounding loss. luckily we were capping the number of “doubles” in the game, else it’ll be even more out my pocket. >.< but i had fun cos the “competition” were great khakis! fun to banter, then play serious, then banter again. lively. =) got home nearing midnight, exchanged some sweet words with lloyd, then it was bed.
sat, 2 feb 08 – woke up early enough, but lazed around in bed till 830 am. to my surprise, parents already up and out to polyclinic to get mom’s dressing changed. so had breakfast with za sista! instead around 9 am. dropped her off at school around 10 am, then back to play games till around 1155 am. this was when dad decided to get smart and unplug my internet connection without telling me to “repair” the plug (he changed it from two to three pin), so you can imagine my amusement of seeing lost connection to map server… on my screen. stopped playing, went lunch with parents instead. then dance (but talked to lloyd first). then meeting with fanny and en min (who came back from HK specially for a wake and funeral… sigh). followed by evening out with borna and alex (all the best to borna in breaking heart-breaking news…) to play boardgames at minds cafe, then lan gaming for 1 game, then home and phone with lloyd. then sleep. had some weird dream which was a thriller-like thing… cross between star wars and romance of the 3 kingdoms… with me running from the “enemy” a lot. woke up feeling weird, like i ran a mile or two…
sun, 3 feb 08 – day 4 of no-lloyd, and i’m feeling a little blue. but looking forward to meeting up with derek for some droolsome hunk phototaking and a movie probably. we’ll see how this goes. since it’s only 1015 am right now, might go gym pre-lunch. undecided. see how…
